I really can't believe it's been five weeks since my last post...it's really just a symptom of the current status of life. I've been getting lots of "other" work done, though. I seemed to have lost myself lately in the homeschooling-housework-planning homeschooling-cooking/planning nutritious meals-trying to get back to a running program-reading some great books-good coffee cycle of life..I do have to admit, I'm feeling a bit like a bear getting ready for hibernation...I've withdrawn a bit without really meaning to. Love me anyway!
So many things have come and gone...some sweet moments in the midst of what's beginning to feel like normal life with the same old question..."where are we going to end up?" It just seems hard sometimes to keep giving the same answers to the same old questions...and honestly, we really just don't know. The house is officially off the market, and for now that's really all we're sure about. ((sigh)) I'm doing all I can really do...which is fully trusting that when the time is right for the next step, He'll guide our path!
We have done lots of schooling, had summer supper club with some wonderful friends, a almost week long visit from Bobo and Uncle Chris, lots of Dr. visits, dentist appointments...my brother Steve (the kids' Pappaw...family chart and story of God's grace will be provided upon request) had a little heart scare and a cardiac cath the week of Labor Day...he'll need stents but not urgently...
Took a 4 day trip to Ocean Isle beach over Labor Day weekend (wonderful, relaxing...GREAT company) seeing friends who moved away and visiting with friends we never seem to have the time to get together with while we're at 'home'...this is our third year of doing this with the same families and Emily says we "always" go to beach on Labor Day.
It's football time in Tennessee and they lost their first game of the season (uugghh!) in overtime! Since they aren't ranked we're having a dilemma and contemplating subscribing to the live Internet feed (?) of games...Sad, sad times...
I've tried some great new recipes I'll post soon...I've been concentrating really hard at getting my protein (and IRON) in every day...and I'm progressing with my couch to 5K walking/running schedule. I've been catching up on the previous seasons of Grey's Anatomy that I've missed so I can start the new season off right...TV on DVD (no commercials) is cool! Oh, and I've been on Facebook...who knew?!? I thought it was just for teeny-boppers and there's tons of people on there...so no blogging but I've been writing on people's walls...
A hard day that creeped up on me, August 21...what would have been Moma's 82nd (!?!?!) birthday, it's almost impossible to believe she's been gone 17 years...in one more year I will have lived with Joe longer than I lived with her (married at 20, but adopted/whatever at 21 months...again chart provided upon request).
It makes me sad that Emily or Nate will never know how much she would have delighted in them. She would have spoiled Nate senseless...she REALLY loved boy babies. She would have been proud of Emily...it makes me sad that Emily asks questions about her and I can't always find the best answers...they seem incomplete, falling short of really being able to describe all the facets of who her Granny Evelyn was. It amazes me that she hasn't been here for so many of my life events...college graduation etc. Sometimes, much more rarely now, the pain comes sharply and quickly as if the grief is fresh and new...and her birthday, my birthday, Christmas, Thanksgiving (all major holidays, really)...and the time of her death (July) are always poignant for me...and amazingly the grieving often slips up on me, I don't even think about it being her birthday when all of the sudden...my heart is in a vise and I'm sobbing not even really sure 'why'. Grief is a strange phenomenon, there is comfort...and wonderful memories that make the grieving bittersweet.
I'll post fresh "kid" pictures soon. I got some great shots at the beach and some today of them "writing" in shaving cream. Nate is starting to recognize letters..."my 'N' for Nate". His speech is getting so clear! Emily started with the Upwards sports program, cheer leading last week. She was so excited to get her uniform and pom-poms. She's just about got her scripture memorized for tomorrow's practice so she can get her first sticker on her megaphone. She'll also do Brownies this year, her third year in Girl scouts. She started out with this troop in kindergarten so there's several "school friends" that she gets to see. We're planning our first family camping trip in a couple of weeks, so she's excited about FINALLY getting to go camping.
We've had the requisite round of ear and sinus infections...with at least three pediatrician visits...and of all things I got ear infections last week too. Crazy, I haven't had ear infections in forever. I think we're all on the mend...well, Nate's coughing and starting to sound croupy, so who knows where that will end.
Anyhoo...for tonight...I'm catching up on some blog reading...checking emails...and thinking about planning some play dates...and thinking about planning menus for the week...and thinking about the laundry I'll do tomorrow...thinking about a small group Bible study for the fall...and thinking about the field trip we're taking to the cattle farm on Friday...and the Brownie visit to the local radio station (hum, what'll I do with Nate?), trying to figure out how to say some Latin words, and looking at the science experiment we might actually get to this week and thinking about some lesson plans ; ) while I'm sitting here in bed with my computer in my lap and my husband is fast asleep (what's up with that? He's usually the night owl).
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