Wednesday, December 29, 2010

A quick confession...

I haven't enjoyed going to work this week.  I've really had a horrible attitude about leaving the kids every day of this last week of their break.  I've had trouble counting the blessings in the fact that I have a good job to go to...and that they have great people loving them while I'm away.  I've drug my feet getting ready, slammed things around while packing my lunch, complained about things that are small offenses, forgotten things that are necessary (nametag, lunch etc) because I'm distracted in my crumminess.

It's a heart issue, I know that.  It's an issue that lies deep within being content in my circumstances.  There have been lots of times during this motherhood adventure that I would have been ELATED to have 4-5 hours away from the children...instead of counting the hours of every break from school they will have until they are in college and how I am MISSING 25 hours this week of those times...

So, I admit I have been whiny and hard to deal with this week...I'm sorry...and I will try to do better.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Thoughts on Thursday...

I have been rowing my oars just trying to keep afloat, and not doing too well at it quite honestly.  It seems I have a different schedule every week...with a different routine...and a revolving to-do-list.  But, some big projects have been completed at our house during the last couple of weeks, with big finale celebrations at school today.  Emily's class has been studying History of the Middle ages this year.  It has been quite interesting as "she" learns facts about St. Augustine, the Viking invasion, St. Benedict, Otto I, Alfred the Great, The East-West Schism the council of Chalcedon...the topic for the past two weeks has been the Fuedal system.  It is culminating in a Medieval feast today complete with entertainment and (as authentic as the Mom's could get) authentic cuisine.  A project is also due today...a project that incited fear and excitement when it was announced on back to school night...a Medieval Castle.  Much thought went into the material that would be used, the how's and the what's and even a few of the why's.  And after much planning, thought and attention to detail...our castle is complete....

We had another doctor appointment at the UNC Peds clinic for Nate on's a few updates from that. He was able to have his flu shot after having scratch testing for eggs and the influenza vaccine.  It seems his skin reaction was quite a bit less than it was when we first had it done, which I am taking as a good sign!  As it is decreasing, it increases the chance that Nate will be able to have denatured egg protein.  This egg has been cooked a while in a recipe (baked as in cupcakes/cakes/brownies) but not an egg that has been included in something quick cooked like pancakes.  I know it doesn't sound like it would change our life would still mean we would need to be careful with eggs...but he could have things home made baked goodies from friends in their own kitchens!  We go back in March...probably will have more blood drawn and pulmonary function tests again.  She added a nasal spray and thinks she will discontinue his Singulair and then zyrtec...and start decreasing the Advair inhaler!!!  All good things!

Monday, November 15, 2010

Nate's thoughts on Blasphemy and careers...

Overheard in preschool:

Other 4 year old:   "OH MY GOD, I love cake!!!!"

Third grader who happened by:  "Oh, we don't say the Lord's name in Vain"

Nate:  with a shrug, "I just say it in English...."

Next Week:

Nate:  "My sister wants to be a teacher when she grows up"

Teacher (Mrs. Cooke):  "She must have lots of patience"

Nate:  "No...teachers don't have patients, they have kids"

Previous week:

Nate:  running by Mrs. Cooke "I got my own deoderant"

Monday, November 1, 2010

My eye is twitching....and I can't make it stop!

so after reasearching....
I do believe that I have all the possible causes....and at this rate, my eye will be twitching until heaven.

Eye twitches can be caused by all kinds of things. In order to treat eye twitching you need to understand what the possible causes are in your specific case. Here is a list of the common eye twitch causes.
  • Lack of sleep (Treatment Page): If you haven’t been getting enough sleep lately especially if it has been an ongoing issue this is a likely cause of your eye twitching. This is connected to general fatigue.
  • Stress (Treatment Page): Events in your life that have caused you to become stressed out may be the reason you are suffering from eye twitches. This is connected to general fatigue.
  • Fatigue (Treatment Page): General fatigue from overworking yourself or living a sedentary lifestyle is another possibility. It seems physical fatigue, which comes in many forms, is often a trigger for eye twitching.
  • Screens(Comp/TV) (Treatment Page): This is one of the more controversial causes as many people who have an eye twitch don’t look at a screen excessively. However, it is still a very common cause for a lot of people. Our eyes depend on constant movement and focusing at different distances to stay healthy.
  • Vitamin Deficiency (Treatment Page): If you aren’t eating a balanced diet you might be missing out on certain vitamins and minerals. A vitamin deficiency eye twitching is a very common cause but also one that is easy to treat.
  • Eye Strain (Treatment Page): Your vision might have gotten worse causing you to strain your eyes when reading, driving or other common tasks. Most people don’t even notice when they’re straining their eyes so check during activities when you’re using your eyes.
  • Allergies (Treatment Page): When you’re suffering from allergies your eyes can become very irritated and produce eyelid twitching. A lot of times a person won’t have any other symptoms of allergies so this can be a hard cause to uncover. If you have a history of allergies this is a good possibility though.
  • Caffeine (Treatment Page): As I’m sure you know caffeine is a stimulant and acts on the central nervous system. If you’ve been consuming excessive amounts of caffeine or using it for a long time this could be the cause.
  • Pinched Nerve (Treatment Page): Both physical trauma and gradual tension build up can result in a compressed or pinched nerve in the neck or face resulting in eye twitching.
  • Medication (Treatment Page): Certain medications have a history of producing eye twitches as a side effect. If you’re taking any medication do research on possible side effects and consult your doctor.
  • Withdrawal (Treatment Page): Benzodiazepine withdrawal and long term use very often produce eyelid twitching. Very often this produces blepharospasm which is when both eyes are affacted and is a known risk factor for developing it.
  • Neurological Disorder (Treatment Page): There is a long list of neurological disorders that can cause eyelid twitches but producing such a list would only scare you. If you have no other medical issues or symptoms then you probably don’t have a neurological problem but always consult with a doctor if you’re concerned this is a possibility.
These are all the causes of eye twitching that I have identified. I’m certain that your specific case of eyelid twitch fits into one of these categories. It is a strong possibility that more than one of the above causes is resulting in your eye twitching. To identify all the factors in your life that could be causing this annoying problem please consider each of the above carefully. This will help you single out your specific risk factors so that you can go on to eye twitch treatment.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

allergy update...

I got a call from UNC this morning regarding Nate's allergy testing/x-rays that we went up for last week.
I was very impressed with the amount of time they spent with us, both the resident and the well as all the ancillary staff (respiratory therapists, lab techs and x-ray techs were wonderful!).  They want to see him again in a month and he will need to be off his zyrtec a couple of days so they can do skin prick testing at that visit (sshhhh, don't tell him!)  The biggest goal at this point seems to be to decide if his asthma is "true asthma" or asthma caused by allergies.

The results gave us some great news, some unexpected news and things to watch:

Nate is not allergic to any grasses, weeds or trees.  I think a positive here might have led down the path of desensitization shots. ((YUCK))

He is allergic (mildly) to dogs & cats---for now Dr. Duncan said to not allow the dog to be/sleep in his room (which she doesn't if we catch her!) and to have him wash his hands after any contact w/animals.  This will mean some changes for Bella girl...and we may even HAVE to invest in that $40 dog bed and train her to sleep there instead of being sneaky and climbing on the beds!

He is allergic to dust mites (which are running rampant esp in NC, they like our humid weather!) we have a trip to Wal-mart to purchase mattress, pillow and comforter covers...washing bed linens every week and we have to choose only one or two washable stuffed animal to love...dust mites love those breeding grounds as well.

He is allergic to fungus...not much action to take there.

His chest xray looked good, his Pulmonary function test was great for his age (they told me it's really difficult to get accurate results on that test at his age, and they just wanted a baseline to use for the future).  His sinus x-ray was "equivocal for thickening" which just means the results weren't clear and it will need possible follow-up (maybe even a Sinus CT scan), treatment for chronic sinusitis is 3 weeks of antibiotics (which, if I'm not mistaken, he was given either last winter or spring---because he was going through a really rough patch that wouldn't clear up).

As far as foods he is still strongly allergic to peanuts and he should completely avoid them.  For some reason they left off the test for eggs, their error Dr. Duncan said, which she was very apologetic for and they will test for that at the follow up visit.  She didn't mention tree nuts and I didn't think of it while we were on the phone...but she said to feel free to email any questions I think of later.

All for now, thank you so much for all your prayers as you walk through this journey with us!  We are so very thankful for EACH one of you...

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

She's catching on...

A few minutes ago I rudely interrupted Em "playing barbee's with Nate" (I didn't ask and don't want to know...I THINK he plays w/the barbie cars) ask her to feed the dog and take her laundry out to the garage (that's where we do laundry, you know).  I was going to put a load in the washer.  There was no sighing, no eye rolling...she obeyed immediately...with no complaining.
I realized I hadn't heard her come back in and I put the paper down and went to sort her laundry and put a load in...when I got to the garage, I find her just working hard, sorting away and singing at the top of her lungs.  I backed away from the door and back to the newspaper!
These sure are some sweet times in the parenting world!

Saturday, October 9, 2010

It's Saturday...

and I am so very creative with the blog titles these days!  I feel as if this day has flown by.  It has been the bookend of a very busy week.  The kids are on fall break, and had different people love them during the hours I worked every day...and I am so THANKFUL!! for all that LOVE!  it just made the week seem to go extremely fast.
Today's highlights included lots of sniffles and congestion for games with possible 1st degree burns from the sun (Em's team won and she had some really good kicks)...a yard sale that was close & we picked up a few wonderful books (The Tale of Despereaux, A Nancy Drew Mystery #1 The Secret of the Old Clock, Black Beauty,and an abridged version of The Wizard of Oz for 8-12 yr olds and an American Girl book)  all 50 cents each except for the Nancy Drew which was hard back and $1.  The kids were invited to lunch with Granma after soccer---thank you G'ma & Auntie J!  I had a couple hours, some generic cold medicine and a short nap added to my day.

So, here I find myself at the end of the day, awaiting Joe's return from an overnight trip to Atlanta.  I think he's about an hour away. I'm watching PBS kids (why, you ask?  I often find myself watching kids shows and listening to the kids music when they are no longer around...crazy I know)...and getting ready to read another chapter in the Paul Tripp book Joe recommended, which is really good by the way.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

The One Book...

The one book that Joe strongly states I have to read the "whole time" he's in seminary...don't have to read anything else...but just this one book...I think it really made an impression on him.
I'm starting it tonight, I'll let you know what I think...

Friday, October 1, 2010

Someone's praying for me...

to become what I need to be for the Lord to use me in His ministry...I can feel it.

It's as if the Lord has ripped my heart from my body and has placed it on the's painful, yet reassuring in an odd know that as God looks at my misguided twisted motives...
that He sees it all from an eternal perspective and what seems to be torture and suffering today may just be the remolding of my heart to be what He needs it to be for His glory....

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

A Parent Teacher Conference...

Tuition at a private Classical Christian School.... $$$
Uniforms & materials fees... $$
School Supplies... $

Hearing that she is "doing just fine" adjusting and making friends from a trusted teacher and seeing straight A's on her first report card....priceless!!!

Monday, August 2, 2010

Two funerals and a wedding...sort of...

I know by now, y'all think I've done quit bloggin' and you're partly right...'cause I've been doin' a lot of livin'.  I will try my best to catch you up on the happenin's of life...if you cain't tell, I've spent some time in Ten-e-see (one of the funerals and then back to celebrate a birthday) and some in West Virginey (the wedding, or actually a wedding renewal to celebrate 50 years of wedded bliss & blisters)...and it was all great fun...when I can get MY computer to stay on for more than five minutes I will upload some pictures and share in great detail....until then....I'll try to get my voice back & be the 40-year old self I've grown into being.  Here's some tidbits to whet your appetite until then:
  • the girl starts 4th (yes FOURTH) grade tomorrow at our local Christian school...God provided the means and I am thankful...
  • the boy has another few weeks of down time before he will start pre-K
  • I'm praying for his teacher (you should too...)
  • I haven't had a bathing suit on all summer...1. because I haven't had time to swim 2. because I never did start that walking I was planning to do back in the spring.
  • Hubs "preached" his first sermon as a divinity student last night at our church...I was surprised at how well he did...and I'm pretty critical of him...
  • It's been the quickest longest summer I think I've ever had!

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

A nice evening...

It's a busy week for me...a full schedule, some new responsibilities at work (cardiology has a new prescription refill line), the last week of school for DD, a week with hubs buried in books a few hours away. 
It was nice to fit in an impromptu dinner with a neighbor...glad I had the inspiration (too much food for us to eat) and the motivation (would have been mac & cheese AGAIN probably as I felt guilty about the nice meal I should have fixed)
It was nice to share veggies that had been shared with us (thanks to some friends going on vacation and letting me pick up their Sandhills Farm to Table coop box)...nice to have kids fighting over whose going to get to sleep with Mom...nice to get a phone call from someone who misses us...nice to have friends and family loving our kids (hope the D kids got their snoozes)!

this week is all about staying grateful...

Monday, May 24, 2010

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Be thinking...

Our second "annual" Women's ministry brunch is Saturday. Come, heads filled with ideas about fun things to do...what you need...and what getting those needs met could look like. Be prepared to laugh, cry...and eat! Now, I gotta put M&Ms on that shopping list...

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Her Birthday...

Started with our traditional family dinner on THE day of the actual birthday, no matter what!!  This comes from Joe's growing up experience of celebrating holidays on a very crazy schedule with his mom being a nurse and working most actual holidays...Christmas would be "rescheduled" until the next day off...this scarred him for life, and as a result...we MUST celebrate holidays on their calendar day...sooo...enough said.

She asked for Meatloaf, mashed potatoes, broccoli & cheese, yeast rolls and dirt cake...tinkertoys & a sleepover for friends on Friday...

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

It'll bloom any day now...

She's ahead of me on the path. All legs and ponytail swishing. She's lanky and adjusting to a body that's changing everyday. She yells, "I'm taking that path and I'll meet you on the other side". She's yearning for a little independence. She doesn't even look back to see if I'm following. Her gaze is focused on her destination. She skips, hopscotches and takes the long way around. Then one foot flies one way and the other lands crooked and she goes down on the path. She stands up quickly, shakes it off, looks to see if I'm close by and continues skipping.
I pause to look at the Azalea's...they didn't bloom in time for Easter this year, but they should be in glorious full bloom in a week or so, just in time for her 9th birthday. Nine years...If I close my eyes...and shut out the world... I can still smell her newborn fuzzy head, hear her first cry, see her first smile, and know one of the sweetest things in life is having a daughter.

Picture was taken in 2006...when she was 4, it was her birthday & Easter weekend

April 6th

Dear Ms. Spring...
Where did you go and when are you coming back?

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Friday, April 2, 2010

The boy's soccer

Nate's soccer is really a skill development time, they have a short scrimmage against each other the last 15 minutes or so, but it is fashioned after European Futbol and the focus is really on skill develpment...

Sunday, March 21, 2010


A FORTY-ith birthday party!  I couldn't believe it...nothing makes a girl's funk subside like feeling all that LOVE!  What a wonderful thing...and I REALLY was surprised.  Everyone involved had me convinced there would be no celebration.  My best friends took me out to dinner one night this week to "celebrate" at our favorite Japanese Restraunt (and had the waiters sing to me!), which was great and fun and the highlight of my week...donchya'll know.  I thought that was it.  Sweet Hubs said, "oh, we could go out to dinner if you really want to"...and reminded me of how busy our weekend was going to be.  I was like "never mind..."  "I'll be fine...I will not pout!"  Nothing like being old and grumpy!

 and all the while....all the friends who kept asking me what was wrong KNEW that I was getting ready to be got!
And it was one of the sweetest surprises of my life...and as I rounded the corner and spied the balloons and decorations, my first thought was...oh, the school must be having some sort of celebration. 
There were 40 (+) icing roses handmade by my very pregnant friend B, and PRESENTS!!!  Each one of those cupcakes on the stand below has a rose on it...

all these pictures are from my sis-in-law's they are what they are, I didn't take a camera to small group...and I almost wore sweat pants (Joe're not going to wear that are you?  He knows what's good for him, haha)

Saturday, March 20, 2010

The Girl's Soccer

The best part about Em's soccer this year is the color of the uniforms, haha!!  She's having fun and I got some great shots...

and this is what happens to brothers who have to wait for a soccer game to be over...

Thursday, March 18, 2010

The funk of fourty is upon me...

I don't know exactly why I'm in a makes no sense.  There are a thousand possible reasons why, yet no single one I can tighten my fingers around.  I always get sad and miss my momma, really all my family-.of-origin, on my birthday...when changes are sensed I long to run for the Hills (the TN hills)
I start thinking about all the people who've come into (and some ultimately out of) my life...the bittersweetness of those friendships...those times...I get sentimental and feel urgency in letting everyone know what they've meant in my life. Abandonment has been a big theme that God has used over and over again in my life...the reality of being abandoned by those in life who should love the most...the fear of the possiblility of it...the acceptance that I may be abandoned by everyone but Him.

I AM kinda tired, been staying up too late and running too much.  The van needs tires...we need to decide about a smaller car Joe has looked at for better gas mileage...I need to return the overdue library books...the girl is already starting to ask what we can do for her birthday...spring cleaning (actually just general cleaning)...stitches that need to be taken overdue visit to to do list is longer than my it's done list.  Maybe my iron's low...or my Vitamin D...or my seritonin...or maybe my heart is just not in the right place.

I am grasping for a heart attitude of joy...thankfulness for the fullness of life...blessings too many to count...the kind of joy that comes in the morning with the calmness of clouds clearing and a gentle breeze...made more poignant by the deep turbulence of a stormy sorrow filled night.

Last week brought a ton of adventure...busyness beyond measure...sweet anxiety filled car ride, unsure what I would find at the end of the drive, and relief when after a few hours in the emergency room all was well.  The girl got brackets and wires on her four front teeth...purple, pink and green...they're quite cute.  My babies are growing, just like expected and I'm thankful they are healthy and for the most part obedient and fun to be around.  I'm blessed that our struggles are minimal for now. I have a husband who has found his calling and is at peace and excited about the future.  He has started to live...again.  He is not just going through the motions, when he tells me how much he appreciates all I do...I feel it in my bones.  We are not keeping score...and are truly trying to serve each other...makes for one of the best places we've ever been during our marraige.

I like being in my thirties....being of child bearing age...being able to check the age range box of 30-39 on a survey...not worrying about retnols for my skin and hormone replacement...cholesterol levels...and if that gas pain could be my heart...wrinkle cream still being for later...not thinking did I get enough fiber today...and why is that inch long hair growing out of the side of my face?  AND IS THAT HAIR ON MY CHIN????

Turning fourty, I'm just not sure about yet.  My vision of what I think it will be like is just not clear and as hard as I squint, I cannot convince myself that I have what it takes to run the race.  In the next decade of my life I will be parenting teenagers... as they begin driving, visit colleges, encountering relationships with others independent of me doing a background check...they will become independent and individualistic...and they probably won't want to snuggle or talk to me all the time, maybe not even at all..and they'll be gone from home more than they're here.  It's not that I dread that time of life, it's just different...a change...

We had a pastor who would wisely say that " growth comes through change (good or bad) and change brings conflict".  I think the tangible changes made in our life over the last few months are being made very real in the form of a number...a new ministry ways that God is going to stretch and grow me and there'll be some conflict.'s all just a big part of the "unknown" of being in my fourties.

until the ponderings continue

Sunday, March 14, 2010

It's one week until...

I'm fourty...what a busy countdown week.  Wednesday was about all I thought I could handle...but then we ended up in the emergency department of our local hospital for a few hours getting these in Nate:

After getting this done for the girl on Wednesday:

Friday really was an uneventful follow up to all those activities.  Friday night was small group at church.  We had a great discussion and I think everyone seemed to be in a great mood.  We're wrapping up our current study and will be starting The Prodigal God, by Tim Keller which I'm very excited about reading and discussing.

A baby shower followed on Saturday for a little sweet miss...lots of pink, lots of fun, lots of laughter...and pink punch.  I love it when the ladies get together...and it's so much sweeter now.
Our pastor's wife did a devotion about mothering daughters that I'm still pondering...and want to read the book some of the ideas came from.  A thought I keep turning around is that it's as important to teach our daughter's not to take offense as it is to teach them not to give offense, with the idea that we women get offended quickly.   I think I'll add a "books to be read" list to my blog so I can keep up with all these wonderful books I keep forgetting I want to read.

Sunday was busy...but worshipful.  A great sermon that you can listen to.  We regret that we have committed to extra activities with the worship service on Sunday night, children's choir will only last a couple more months until it breaks for the summer, but the girl had a talk with the daddy about it feeling like "work" and not feeling like we're having time to "rest" on Sunday.  We'll reevaluate when the time comes.

until more pondering...

Thursday, March 11, 2010


I've never known how to cook fish, so it's been a work in here's a new recipe that's a keeper!  The kids loved it...and I served it with wild rice and steamed veggies...couldn't get any healthier than this!

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Naked Time...

can I tell y'all that I've never been this embarrassed by my children. E.V.E.R.
Not even carrying the girl over my shoulder when she tried to run away in the MALL, of all places. Even as ALL the way to the bathrooms she cried, "Momma don't pank me...momma don't pank me".
Today, the girl and I spent the morning at the Orthodontist (pics to follow) getting a few brackets and wires placed on her teeth.  We had a great morning and I had taken the day off, so we were being quite leisurely.

So, to take advantage of a lunch time away from the clinic, some wonderful ladies and I met at the Chi-wi-chi-wi (Chickfila) for lunch with our wonderful, beautiful, well educated, well mannered children. We had enjoyed each other, the kids had had minimal drama...and I had gotten some almost-newborn baby love from baby Reece.
We were having great grown-up conversation when the man at the other table leaned over and said, "Is that your son?"
I jumped up, cause I could see a blond head...and then as my entire body flooded red with embarrassment...I saw ... the peeper was out!
The pants and underwear were around the knees and the hips were tilted. I was mortified and couldn't get there quick enough. I wasn't sure what he was doing...had he just decided the outdoor carpet was close enough and had he actually possibly peed in the play set???
I am quite proud to say that, somehow, I refrained from committing murder and quite honestly I was so shocked I don't think I even yelled. He's four-an-a-half y'all. He know privates are for private. He knows we only have neked time at home. I do not know what possessed him....he didn't know ("I dun know"). He did know he felt like he was going poo-poo in his pants...but somehow I had failed to have the talk: if you ever feel like you're going poopoo in your pants in a crowded fast food restaurant in the middle of the play set...come get me, DON"T PULL DOWN YOUR PANTS TO SEE....

Thursday, February 25, 2010

there's gonna be yellin"...

  • Momma wakes up to the sound of the a bus going by...paniky not knowing for sure which one it was.
  • All the clothes that were supposed to be laid out last night...well, didn't
  • our bus is stopping at the neighbors and school work is strewed all over the kitchen table...teeth are not brushed and hair is not brushed...and where-o-where-is-your-coat...
  • Someone thoughtfully programmed the coffee pot to automatically brew, but the thermal coffee pot starts overflowing because someone forgot to empty the leftovers from yesterday...
  • a certain 4 year old comes proudly having decided not to put on what was laid out last night, but instead his own fashion creation of mismatched shoes, play pants w/holes in them, and the shirt he wore yesterday...with no socks...or underwear...
  • after getting buckled in the car and down the street...somenone asks, "Is today show and tell..."
but since none of those things happened was a yellin' free morning at our house!

Monday, February 22, 2010

Overheard from the front seat of the Mini-van...

Nate: "mommy is E (a friend's son) 2 or 4?
Me: "He's 2"
Nate: "Well, that's not far from 4"
Nate: After a moment "Mommy, How did E's Mommy get the baby sissy in her tummy"
Me: "Well, it's pretty cool...God made a very special way for Mommy's and Daddy's to grow a baby in Mommies' tummies kinda like planting a seed"
Nate: "Can boys have babies"
Me: "No, God just gave mommies the special parts to have a baby in their tummies"
Nate: "I want you to get a baby in your tummy"
Me: "Well, Mommies parts don't work to have babies anymore"
Nate: "Mommy, how old do I have to be to play basketball...."

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Cousin Dianne

Obituary for Shirley Hicks
Shirley Dianne Hicks, 62, of 66 Price Street, Jane Lew passed away on Wednesday, February 17, 2010 at her home surround by her family following an extended illness. She was born in Weston on September 17, 1947: daughter of the late Doy Wyant Jr. and Norma Jean (Miller) Wyant Gaston who survives of Weston. On October 27, 1967, she married Samuel Hicks, who survives.

In addition to her mother and husband, Mrs. Hicks is survived by one daughter: Monica Michelle Hicks Rogers and husband Tom of Jane Lew and one son: Gregory Lance Hicks and wife Sarah of Clendenin, WV. Also surviving are three grandchildren Samantha Diane Rogers, Allison Joelle Rogers and Natalie Jean Rogers. She was also survived by one brother: James D. Wyant and wife Alanna of Fairmont and three nieces and nephews.

Mrs. Hicks was an office manager for Standard Gas of Jane Lew. She was the mayor of Jane Lew for 10 years and was a member of the City Council of Jane Lew for 10 years prior. Dianne was a member of the First United Methodist Church of Jane Lew, where she was active in many capacities including treasurer and youth leader for over 20 years for each. Mrs. Hicks was chairman of the Lewis-Gilmer Solid Waste Authority and was the Jane Lew Representative of the Region 7 Development Council for 10 years. She was also a member of the Lewis County Development Authority for 10 years.

Family and friends will be received at the Hardman-Paletti Funeral Home 730 N. Main Avenue Weston on Saturday, February 20, 2010 from 2-4 & 6-8 p.m. Funeral services will be held on Sunday at 1:30 p.m. from the Hardman-Paletti Funeral Home chapel with Reverend Paul Helmick, Reverend Ron Brown and Reverend Sharon Carr officiating. Interment will follow services in the Broad Run Cemetery of Jane Lew, WV.

Hardman-Paletti Funeral Home of Weston is in charge of arrangements for Shirley Dianne Hicks.

Their mother's are sisters.  Dianne is the oldest grandchild on Joe's Mom's side of our family.  She was loved greatly...spent the last months of her life in much pain, but ready with laughter and frequent jokes that kept the family on it's toes.  I remember vividly how welcome she made me feel as a new bride on my first trip to Weston, WV to Mammaw's house.  Joe is packing and will be on the road within the hour....pray for safe travel and that he, his mom & sister make it there in time for the visitation this evening.  

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

I'm still here...

God's still with us....and providing the Manna we need for today! The blessings abound. I dread the day this gets tedious and I am weary, I can see the shadow of it looming in the horizon. All is well and all are healthy...more soon I promise ;)

Sunday, January 31, 2010

June 17th

...and there I was in Disney World...all of my wildest dreams were being realized...I had MET THE MOUSE, eaten breakfast in Cinderella's castle, ridden the Dumbo and the was simply magical!! 

So right, there in the middle of my dream of dreams vacation, I was obligated  happy to attend the WIC brunch, the one event during PCA General Assembly that childcare was provided. I am being quite dramatic here, I was actually excited to go to the brunch...hear Paul Tripp speak, maybe even experience a Susan Hunt sighting and peruse the CEP bookstore.
What I did not plan on was being surrounded at brunch by women whose husbands had left their careers midlife to go into full time ministry.  As they asked about us (Ruling Elder or Teaching Elder?) and our journey I found myself sharing that my husband had completed one "trial" seminary class:   Bible Survey and that we were seeing where this all would VERY SLOWLY lead, since I was a homeschooling mom and he has the supporting role of our families budget with his career.   I was happy with the idea that Joe would take this seminary thing very slowly...part-time...and really not change our life very much...I would be quite unaffected for several years...and maybe we'd even discover that we had truly misunderstood and that neither of us was fit for full time ministry.
What I didn't count on and couldn't see was the VERY similar stories those ladies shared with me...that it sounded very much like what I was going through...and that Paul Tripp had apparently had a conversation with the Almighty about the priorities of my heart.  I soon began to feel like God was using these things to mold my heart into complete submission...

So here are my notes from Paul's WIC brunch address (I often take notes in the first person...helps me think more personally about it and to apply principles a little better).
Disappointment is universal but not uniform. 
  • we live in a fallen world
  • difficult things happen
  • all of us are not disappointed all at the same time
Where am I disappointed?
  • think about the times you say, "If only...then my life would be..."
  • What am I doing with my disappointment?
  • Where does my disappointment lead me?
I'll never understand those moments and how to deal with them until I first understand under every disappointment is a war for my heart.

Disappointment is a responsibility not an emotion.  Disappointment is a calling!

Believing in the Sovereignty of God doesn't make things make sense.  It is because of the sovereignty of God...that we feel at peace when things don't make sense.

Suffering leads to life never being the same never being the same again is in of itself sometimes a wonderful thing!

2 Corinthians 5:14, 15
For the love of Christ controls us, because we have concluded this: that one has died for all, therefore all have died; and he died for all, that those who live might no longer live for themselves but for him who for their sake died and was raised.

Sin shrinks my world down to my wants, my needs, my feelings
Love of myself ... I have a wonderful plan for my life...I have my own dreams to accomplish...

The DNA of sin begins very young:
"My lunch is better than your lunch"
"I want...I want...I want"
Early on, we begin our comparison to others.

"It's not my party"...we don't always get to open the presents, but it's hard lesson to understand as kids why we don't. 

We are born into the world for the glory and pleasure of another.  It will NEVER be about me!

Theology forces us to grapple with this...we have the need to understand the struggle and disappointment.  There is something in all of us that wants to be sovereign over our own control.

I will never understand disappointment until I understand that I'm actually suffering the fact that MY plan is not going to dreams for myself are crashing around me.

Even if my plan was accomplished, I would still be unfulfilled...there would still be a void in my heart.

You know everything you need to know about a person's heart if you know what causes them to celebrate and what causes them to weep.

Matthew 6
Lay Up Treasures in Heaven

19 "Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal, 20 but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

22 "The eye is the lamp of the body. So, if your eye is healthy, your whole body will be full of light, 23 but if your eye is bad, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light in you is darkness, how great is the darkness!

24 "No one can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and money.

Contrast between the kingdom of self and the kingdom of God. 

Self is so deep inside of us.

Treasure = provocative word
                assigned value (treasure's in our lives) man's trash is another man's treasure.

I am living for some kind of treasure
I attach my identity, meaning and purpose of life and well-being to that treasure.

The thing that is my treasure will control me!!
(education for security...a nice even the people I love)

What controls your heart will control your behavior.

Your Lord will plunder your treasure...because He deeply fully loves you and that Earthly treasure stands between you and Him.  By Grace, He pries open our hands so that we will hold loosely to those Earthly treasures and tightly to Him.

Disappointment, anger and envy are all bred from a heart holding onto Earthly treasures.

Earthly treasures are temporary, they rust...are wary of attaching your soul to those.

My heart is only safe when it is held by Him--we give it away to easily to people...loved

(parents of teenagers:  beautiful house that you don't want kids to sit on new furniture...where are the kids going to hang out...would rather have furniture they can be comfy on...feel loved that they are treasured more than a sparkly household)

God will take you where you do not want to go
in order to produce in you what you could not achive on your own.
Grace of refinement...

What treasure in my heart competes with Jesus?

Sovereign God is a savior---magnificent love---willing to take us through deep disappointments.  Deep danger of our idolatry...Gift becomes more important than the giver...we are easily seduced.

We are never in the midst of our disappointments alone.  He arrives there first.  Prayer doesn't call Him into action, He's already active.

Graciousness gives for us in the midst of disappointment.  Disappointment is always hard, but not always just about physical or emotional suffering  BUT about the loss of Treasures.

Jesus...the suffering couldn't be better understood by anyone else.  He endured rejection so that we would never see the back of God's head.

So there I was riding in the car on the long trip home from tuned in to the borrowed DVD player in the back with their headphones in place...and we were comparing notes.  He shared with me some of his many thoughts during the many events he attended.  Then he asked the question I was waiting for...he asked, "what do you think all this means...what are we supposed to do?"  I replied quickly..."seminary full". 
I shared with him what I thought God had showed me...and without hesitation, I knew that God was prying loose my grip on all these earthly treasures...the things that I thought I wanted for us and for the kids...the things that I thought going to seminary and following God's call would cost us...

I believe all of this is in order that I could, somehow, during the journey learn to hold more tightly to Him, trust Him instead of men or myself, that I might learn to worship Him more fully, ...even if it means we go to Africa...even if we end up somewhere and there are no plug ins for my hairdryer...or there are big HUGE spiders...and I believe that if that is His plan, He will give me a passion and desire for those people that is bigger than any spider I might see.  I will have to rely on Him for everything...hopefully I'm learning and He won't have to send me that far to learn my dependence is on Him, but there is obedience in the willingness...and to learn to hold loosely the treasures of this world for my true treasure is in Him.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Two $25 checks...

from Walgreens in the mail today if I'll transfer a prescription for each check. UUGGHH! I've had a horrible experience there for the last several times that we've had prescriptions faxed from our doctor's offices. One Saturday when Nate had pneumonia there was a three hour wait and a bunch of irate folks waiting for flu was awful!
So, on a friends recommendation I tried Towne Center Pharmacy on Bennett Street....LOVED it! It reminds me of the Burgie Drug Store at home...hometown service and with all our health events these past few weeks, I think they already know me by name! The wait, so far has been negligible...20 minutes at most. One of those times it was on a Saturday and one of the drugs didn't come through on fax and the Pharmacist came around the counter, explained that they were calling and apologized for my inconvenience. I wanted to hug her neck!
So, I ask the $50 bribe worth it...

Just a few words...

  •   sick people
  •   antibiotics
  •   hubs studying Greek
  •   work
  •   laundry
  •   dishes
  •   meals
  •   a baby shower
  •   a busy Missions week at church
  •   lots of coffee
  •   car repairs...van & truck
  •   an unexpected morning home
  •   provision
  •   a cup running over
but in case I sound weary, I know...Our Lord is in control...and sometimes He calms the storms and other times He calms me...I'm just so thankful for peace and calmin of the Holy Spirit!

Oh, by the way a new blog to check out by one of my bloggy friends and in person aquaintaces Amanda ;) who is quite passionate about living a frugal life & saving money...check it out!